Ashley, Terri & The Spirit World

{Ashley pg. 4 - Terri pg. 4}

By - Bonnie M. Wells

www.starlightinnerprize.com

In my original work with Ashley Howley's case, I had said that I felt a "connection" to "Jackson." As time passed, I wasn't sure just what this connection was. I didn't know if Ashley would eventually be found in the Jackson, Ohio area, or if there was yet another meaning to my feelings.

So many people had written and asked me to not give up on Ashley's case. There was no doubt that she was much loved and very much missed by all who knew her. Over the course of several months I had corresponded with and spoken with many members of Ashley's family and a vast number of her friends. I almost felt as if she was part of my own family, and anyone who ever knew me could have told her family and friends that I would NEVER give up. Sometimes I didn't get the answers I sought. Sometimes the cases were never solved, but it certainly was NEVER because I gave up. More often than not it was because we lived within a system that just didn't work, and a system in which too many who were paid to work missing person cases did give up and walk away. But that wasn't my style!

By March 31st, some continued to hold out hope for Terri Schiavo's case to be re-opened or some sort of "stay of execution," to come from one of the Bush's or some other mysterious source. I was not one of them.

Somehow I had instinctively known that the last day to actually save Terri Schiavo was going to be March 29th. When it came and went with no action, I had a sinking feeling.

March 31st, 2005:

The Final Dream

MOM THEY'RE HURTING ME, IT'S BEEN TOO LONG."

Ashley's mother's name is Jackie: She has reported her dreams about Ashley to me and most can be found on Ashley's main pages, which will be listed at the bottom of this page.

Just after six o'clock on the morning of March 31st, Jackie called Kerry with a distressing message.

She'd had another dream about Ashley. This time Ashley had shaken her awake and was saying .... "Mom they're hurting me. It's been too long."

Kerry reported - "Jackie was so distraught, she called the PD, and was told ASHLEY'S CASE IS NOT A PRIORITY. I asked her what the officer's name is, to which she replied, officer JACKSON. Bonnie, I got a chill immediately! It's like Terri is talking through Ashley or vice versa, OR BOTH! JACKSON COUNTY, JESSE JACKSON... "

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I wrote to Jackie:

Dear Jackie,

Kerry told me of the dream you had in which Ashley came and shook you awake. I understand your grief Jackie, but please listen to me for just a moment. Ashley is NOT in pain. Ashley is in the spirit world now - some call them angels. I do not think departed spirits are angels, but I do believe they work closely with the angels. There is no physical pain or suffering in the spirit world Jackie. Ashley is working on behalf of those living now. And I believe she came to you , not with a message concerning herself, but with a message concerning Terri Schiavo in Florida.

Terri could not speak for herself, and for two solid weeks there was debate as to whether she could "feel pain" and whether she was suffering.

Terri's own mother had not been to see her since Easter Sunday because she could not tolerate what her daughter was being forced to endure.

I believe all the spirits and angels alike were "swarming" America - just like the sharks that swarmed the Florida beaches as Terri lay dying.

I believe Ashley came to you and showed you - not what she was feeling - but what Terri Schiavo was feeling. It is up to people like us Jackie, to tell the world what's going on, because the elite - those with degrees and titles - will never tell the truth {if in fact they are ever permitted to know the truth.}

Remember when Ashley came and told you to "suck it up?" She was preparing you at that time for some "tough to take" messages. They are messages very important to the living Jackie, and you have been selected as one of the messengers. Ashley has done a remarkable job reaching out to those she knew, and an even more remarkable job reaching out to those she never knew. She is a worker Jackie, and she has teamed up with a tough, no nonsense group of spirits that can and will kick ass all across the world, but they must have our understanding and willingness to listen to them and then do whatever we can to spread the message.

That's what I do Jackie. I spread the message - in my own way and my own style - but it goes out in all directions. And Ashley is part of that, so please try not to be too upset when she comes and tells you things, and be proud that you have been selected {and accepted} as part of a miracle so grand that the world has not beheld anything like it for centuries!

The pain of loss never really goes away Jackie, but when we finally realize our loved one is NOT DEAD to God, then we can also realize they are NOT DEAD to us either! At that point we can begin to look forward to their visits, and we can actually become excited about being part of this wonderfully exciting time in history.

Before closing a short story about my daughter's latest dream:

She was attending a party or large gathering of some type and she saw my mom and dad there. {Dad died in 1994 and mom in 1997} Christina went up to mom, her grandmother, and said .... "Oh grandma, I'm so glad to see you. I thought you were dead." to which mom laughed and said, "Oh no, I didn't die. I just had to get out of town for awhile!"

Meanwhile Christina could see dad milling around talking to people and everyone seemed to be having a good time. Mom worked her way through the crowd and spoke to other people as Christina stood talking to a pretty blond haired girl that she didn't know. She realized as she looked around the area that she knew no one except mom and dad, and she wondered who all the other people were. / end of dream:

Dream Message:

The pretty blond was Ashley: She is with my parents and others who have "passed over" to the spirit world.

The dream occurred just prior to the news about Terri Schiavo:

Mom was telling Christina that "we are not dead to God, nor those who accept life after death," and she was alerting her to something "big" that was about to occur "out of town" - {out of Ohio} - that would involve many, many people. And so Terri Schiavo's life and ultimate murder did.

Love and prayers,

Bonnie

My Opinion

Ashley has teamed up with a mighty pack in the spirit world. They were no nonsense, kick ass, take names later people when they were here in the flesh, and they haven't changed one iota. I believe they have selected Terri Schiavo as their "calendar girl" and whether she lives or dies is not as important to them, as the fact that we see what is happening in our nation and take a stand against it!!

I also think the entire pack has selected me as their "writer" - probably at Mom, Dad and Mike's insistence - no doubt!!!! Well, I'll write it up and scream it from the rooftops because I am absolutely amazed and fascinated by what is happening here!

I can't believe this started with Ashley and "Jackson." We should have known "Jackson" was on his way!!!

Hundreds of people journeyed to Florida and stood watch over the hospice where Terri Schiavo lay dying. Hundreds of news reporters and media experts debated the case - mostly from a "professional distance," that not only sounded cold but actually took on a cruelty of its own.

I was not much impressed by most reports, but there were some people whom I'd not cared much for prior to the case that I changed my mind about. One of these was Jessie Jackson. His mission failed, but still, he tried, and one has to give the man credit for that.

But there was one person in Florida whom I'd always liked, and had usually agreed with, and that was Shawn Hannity. His dedication to the truth, and his own personal feelings and frustrations were never more evident. He was truly concerned, and it showed in every report.

Terri Schiavo passed away at 9:05 am on March 31st, 2005 - as a result of the forced starvation, requested by her husband Michael Schiavo and ordered by Judge Greer. May God have mercy on their souls, and may he never put me in charge of them!

I doubt that the American people will ever learn the actual truth about Terri Schiavo - at least from the autopsy and the doctors. But I'm going to crawl back out on that old limb that I'm notorious for and I'm going to say right here, and right now - Terri Schiavo was not in a persistent vegetative state {PVS}. She could feel pain, she could understand most {if not all} of what was being said to her.

Ashley Howley brought the final news and it tells the entire story: "Mom, they are hurting me." This tells us that she most assuredly could feel the pain of her horrible death.

She went on to say - "It's been too long." This statement shows us that the feeding tube had been out too long and there was no hope of recovery anymore. She had waited until the final call had been made; the final plea rejected; the final hope crushed, and then she had let go and "went on up the stairs." Her final thoughts were for her mother, and they were a message to her mother. But there is another message for her mother in particular and her family and friends in general - "It is over. I'm alright now. Don't cry uncontrollably for me."

Terri died at 9:05 am: If that number is converted to a date and reversed {as we saw in Ashley's case} we are looking at 5-09: That was my dad's birthday:

Pope John Paul II passed away on April 2nd: Some of the last words he ever spoke in this world were for Terri Schiavo.[ April 2nd '4-02' was my Grandmother Frazer's birthday.]

He is with Terri now. They are with that "Martin" clan, and Lord only knows what they all will do next! I can barely wait to see!

Manna - By Any Other Name

"And Moses said unto Aaron,

Take a pot, and put an omer full of manna therin,

and lay it up before the Lord,

to be kept for your generations: [Exodus 17:33]

After Terri Schiavo passed away, I continued to work on Ashley's case - as well as many others, and I continued to believe that God was going to intervene and bring forth a miracle that all of mankind could see for themselves.

Ashley's' case remains a "non-priority" in Columbus, Ohio, and no one within law enforcement seemed too concerned about solving it, or finding Ashley.

Already there had been enough "circumstantial evidence" presented to me, against certain people, to convince me that they should be questioned thoroughly. But, I wasn't a cop, and apparently they didn't do things my way.

If I'd had the money, I might have considered hiring a private detective to work Ashley's case - but then, if I had that kind of money, I'd probably have a detective on every case I worked because the one thing I wanted was these killers off our streets, and if regular law enforcement could not do the job, then I'd hire people who could.

Already, I'd gotten a nation wide reputation for being a no-nonsense, kick-ass woman, who was about as stubborn as a jackass. Well, I operated on instinct - since I didn't have all the fancy training {indoctrination} of those trained to work homicide. Still, there were many people in the country who liked my style and admired my courage.

Courage. I didn't have as much courage as they thought! There were times when I shook all the way to the destination that I felt God ordered me to go to - but I went; yes sir, I went right along!

It reminded me of Moses - when God told him to lead the people out of Egypt. Moses didn't speak plainly and he asked God to have his brother Aaron do the job. But God had said no, he didn't want Aaron, he wanted Moses, and so it was Moses that led the people through the wilderness to the promised land.

I didn't think I was Moses - or any of the greats of the Bible - but when I felt it was God that sent me, then I would get there one way or another. And always, when I did, I realized there was a message waiting for me - one that was important - not to me, but to someone else. Usually a dead person! Usually one of the cases that I was working or would soon be working. Yeah, I live a pretty strange life. Exciting, but really strange!

A few weeks after Terri Schiavo's death I had a vision. It was what I have termed a "night vision," simply because I don't know what else to call it. I was not asleep so it cannot be called a dream. I did not have my eyes open, so it cannot accurately be called a vision. So for lack of a better term, I called it a "night vision."

I'd spoken with Mysde on the phone until bed time that night - which is early morning hours usually - and then I'd taken my little dog Copper and went to bed. We'd just gotten settled in - me under the sheets and her under the electric blanket that she insists on sleeping under all summer long!! Perhaps because I cool the room down to the lowest setting on the air-conditioner, and even the grandkids say my room is like walking into a freezer compartment! I like it cold.

I'd just turned off the night light and shut my eyes, when I "saw" this small blue * dot. It kept coming at me and getting larger as it came! Now, I've had some weird experiences in my time, but I've never seen anything like this! As the dot got closer I could see it was taking on a shape. That shape was the letter M. Then it faded away, back into the dot, and it started all over again. Only this time the letter was an A. I lay there in the blackness of my bedroom, eyes closed, and "watched" as the letters repeated the same pattern over and over again, with one exception .... I was seeing doubles!!! *M*A*M*M*A* -- *M*M*A -- *A*M*M*.

Now I know this sounds crazy; sounds like I was high on something, but I'm telling you here and now, I've never done any type of drug in my entire life; do not drink alcoholic beverages; take no kind of medication that could case such things; and have never experienced anything like this in my life!

Re-telling it here, it sounds as if this was an ongoing thing that lasted an hour or so, but that is not the case. This was a rapid succession of letters ... so rapid in fact, that when I opened my eyes and stopped the night vision, I could not precisely recall which letter had come first - the A or the M. I just knew that there were two M's presented together at some point!

I told several people about the experience, and while telling Mysde about it, I came up with the term "night visions." That reminded me of my grandson when he was about 3 1/2 years old. He was telling me about falling over the big wooden box with a body in it!!!!! Scared the hell out of me! I began to question him and he soon informed me that - "They are dream bubbles, Mamaw. If you blink or shut your eyes, the bubble bursts and they are all gone!" What a child! What a definition of a vision! "From the mouths of babes" --

Well, here I was some 13 years later experiencing something similar except mine occurred when I shut my eyes, and disappeared {even in total blackness} when I opened my eyes!

I have since had a couple more of these night visions. I was a little more prepared for them, than the first time. The letters have never returned but I've "seen" a couple of people that I did not recognize - for awhile. Each night vision has panned out - except that first one. All I could ever come up with was something about Wild Bill and the company he works for. It's initials are MMA, so I figured it had to be something about him. Now, I'm not so sure.

It all began with my granddaughter Mariah singing Independence Day at a local contest last week end, and it really hasn't let up since! That story can be seen by clicking on the following link: Mariah Fae & Independence Day

Last night - 8-24 - on the 13th anniversary of the murder of Ronda Manley, Kerry called me about Ashley's case.

She was so excited. It seems a man by the name of Joe Mammana has increased the reward on Ashley's case substantially!

Kerry said she had spoken to Mr. Mammana over the phone and he seemed like a wonderful person, and she was so impressed with his tough, no nonsense manner. She said he reminded her of me - soft on the folks but kick-ass tough on criminals! Yeah, that was me alright. I was so taken by what the man had done I started crying - and Ashley isn't "my" relative - she's Kerry's!!!

We've all shed many tears over Ashley and the prayers have never stopped for her. I am not part of her family, and yet, I almost feel that I am now .... like either she adopted me, or my family that has gone ahead has adopted her - or something. It's kind of strange.

Anyway, it finally hit me - MA MMA - the first night vision had given me most of his name! Perhaps if I hadn't opened my eyes, I would have gotten all of it!!! I won't open my eyes the next time - I promise!

I turned to my Bible:

"And Moses said unto Aaron,

Take a pot, and put an omer full of manna therin,

and lay it up before the Lord,

to be kept for your generations: [Exodus 17:33]

I turned to my dictionary:

manna: "food miraculously provided for the Israelites in the wilderness:" "anything badly needed that comes unexpectedly."

Mr. Joe Mammana

A computer search revealed a little information about Mr. Mammana. Not enough to satisfy me, but that's okay. I liked what I found.

They say he's a "hard-boiled businessman," a Sicilian, and is a member of North Philadelphia's Citizens Crime Commission board.

I don't know Mr. Mammana, and will probably never have the pleasure of meeting the man, so this web page is going to have to serve as my way of saying thanks to him.

I never knew Ashley - or any of the other victims listed within the hundreds of pages of this web site. And I've never had the money to actually go anywhere and really help anyone who had lost a loved one, so this web site has served as my way of trying to help.

I wish we had a Citizens Crime Commission Board in this area! I once wrote a letter to the editor of our local paper and suggested something like that, but no one seemed interested. I once tried to start a "Citizen's Reward Fund," where anyone could donate any amount they wanted and it would be used to try to get some of these killers off our streets. That didn't go over very well either.

Over the years, I guess there isn't much I haven't tried. Nothing has worked - so eventually, I just gave up and struck out on my own, with this web site being the result.

If Mr. Mammana ever reads this page, or if anyone who knows the man reads it, please tell him I said thanks. Thanks for caring. Thanks for the reward on Ashley's case. Perhaps, with Gods blessings he will accomplish what others have only dreamed of! Thank you sir.....

Sincerely,

Bonnie M. Wells

Update On Mr. Joe Mammana

Don't anyone mention me or this page to Joe Mammana!! The last I heard of him he was sitting in jail! He'd apparently reneged on paying some of the reward money he'd offered in one of the cases he'd chosen, and from that point onward things seemed to go south quickly! The FBI arrested him on a firearms violation charge, and that's about when I quit listening or hoping that he'd be of any help in Ashley's case or any other case!!! About all I can say is -- woe be unto those who make false promises and pretend to care about others when in fact they care about no one but themselves. The best thing they could do is stay as far away from me and 'my' cases as they can stay!

Bonnie M. Wells